Wednesday, September 27, 2006
I feel empty.
I feel empty inside. And that doesn't mean I am unhappy. Just bored, generally, with life. I get very good grades while putting little effort into it. I like reading, and do it quickly and efficiently, but I am not like my girlfriend who loves to read. I don't need to. I've never had a feeling of real exultation in my life, apart from my relationship with my fiancee. Otherwise, I've just always flowed along - not that I lead a dull life, but it just doesn't interest me in the least. I'm an MA student, and I like what I study, but I could do something else and not feel that bad about it, either. Life is synonimous with ennui for me - studies, work, leisure... I can't seem to feel excited about anything, or eager to do anything either. It's like being in an isolation cell within my own body. I'm sorry if I don't express the feeling well, but it is difficult to do. And I'm not depressed about it either - I don't care enough about life to feel bad about it, and I would never think of suicide, because it's just not worth the trouble.
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i was thinking...this is me.
if you want you could write to me at athingfromthepast@rediffmail.com
Empty -
Here's a thought. Perhaps you are lacking "challenge" in that everything seems so easy for you. There are many people in this world who have way too much challenge and who could benefit from your "excess capacity."
Suppose you determined to use your skill (whatever subject the MA is in) to help these folks? For example, if your MA was in cinema, you might consider making a documentary on some problem that requires attention. I think you would quickly have plenty of challenge finding funding, arranging travel to some grim corner of the earth, etc. In short, try getting outside yourself and digging DEEP into someone else's problems.
Good luck, but be careful...could change your whole life!
I am writing a book about the empty feeling I feel we all experience. I would love to talk with anyone interested in this subject to test my solution.
Thanks
You can email me at luckyfocusinc(at)yahoo.com
Lol, I like the way Yoda guesses the guy is doing an MA in film as the basis for the rest of his post. What if he isn't? There's goes your advice! What a fucking dumbarse.
i understand you completly, cause i feel the same sometimes. i used to care more for things, but right now amd just bored, sad ,depressed and nothing cares me too much. iam about to end my career and i dont have a clue about what am i gonna do in life... that empty feeling really sucks. i think it will disappeared when i find my real passion
yea i pretty much feel the samething and like u i get A's but feel that life has no importance and haven't found a meaning for it but still don't feel depressed nor bad about it just feel nothing
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