Friday, September 22, 2006
I miss you
R, you told me not to contact you -- that it would be too hard. I have respected that completely even though I have drafted countless unsent emails and think of you every single day. In the last few weeks I've been on three dates with different guys and none of them have come close. I tried to open myself up to new people, new experiences, not to dwell. But I didn't get to the second date. Why? There was no zip. With you, there was zip from second one. Do you miss me? Are you still out there, are you okay? I hope you are happy, healthy, and growing on your own path. I still love you.
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Wow. I am sorry I am not "him." You are good to honor his request that you not contact him, but be sure he knows you are open to his return. Maybe you just put a note in your calendar to drop him a very brief and unsentimental note in a couple of months... "Hi, hope you're ok, no response necessary."
R contacted me after three months: He just wanted me to know that he loved me, that it was real. And it was. Somehow he heard me crying out for him. Wow.
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