My boyfriend didn't tell me he loved me yesterday. I got the card and the candy, but not the words. It hurts beyond anything...

My work has inter-office instant messaging, and after I got off a call with my boss, I messaged my best friend that our boss is a retard bitch.

Yep, you guessed it. My boss was standing behind her. She saw it.

She hasn't said anything to me yet, but I'm terrified now. I don't know whether to say something first, or let her say something, or just pretend it didn't happen.

In my defense, my boss was being a retarded bitch that day.

I keep having dreams that my boyfriend is cheating on me. I don't know why; he never has, and never has done or said anything to make me think he would. Rationally, I can't ever even see him doing it. Yet I keep having these dreams where he does....my ex-boyfriend cheated on me a lot, but that was five years ago, so I don't know if that has anything to do with it or not.

I hate it though, I wake up with this uneasy, awful feeling, for no tangible reason. :(

Don't Know What To Do

What do you do when you are in love with a friend and are living with someone else who you can't stand? I've been living with Boy B for a while now, and we've gotten to the point that we don't even bother to speak to each other anymore. Boy A has been around forever in my life, always as a friend and nothing more, though I've always wished otherwise. I've always been there to support Boy A in all of his endeavors, while all I get is grief about trying something new for myself from Boy B.

So why do I stay with Boy B? Because I'm scared to death of being rejected by Boy A.

I think I'm in love with my best friend.